I was a believer at an early age. However, I was misled into thinking I had committed the unpardonable sin. When I was thirty, I went into a downward spiral of fear and anxiety, and suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder. My mind was flooded with blasphemies and swearing directed at God and the Holy Spirit.
For three years, I was a nervous wreck and had to take medication for my anxiety and to sleep. I consulted church leaders and even though they meant well, their advice made me feel condemned. I was in a desperate place.
One morning, when I turned on the television, I saw Pastor Joseph Prince preaching on grace. I started listening to his grace messages and something deep inside me resonated with what he was preaching. I later found out that Pastor Prince went through what I was experiencing. Just knowing that he had the same experience gave me hope.
It was scary at first to trust a radical grace preacher when all I was familiar with was legalism and self-effort.
However, I made the decision to be bold and to put my trust in God’s grace. It was not long before I found that my blasphemous thoughts were starting to clear up.
Where I was muddled and confused, I started developing the ability to think clearly. Fears began to leave. Through God’s grace working inside me, I was able to take myself off the medication for obsessive-compulsive disorder and depression. The more I let go of my own efforts and trusted Him, the more my mind became sound. Where I was worried about my eternal salvation, I started having a confident expectation of good for my life and for what will happen when I finally meet my loving Savior face-to-face.
I thank God for people brave enough to preach a radical message of God’s grace. Although I still have days where doubts creep in, thankfully, I am able to resist them through being established in grace through good teaching and revelation from God’s Spirit inside me. I am gaining new ground every day and I am fully confident that I will be fully restored in the very near future! What the enemy has stolen from me will be returned seven-fold!
Thank you, Pastor Prince, for being so bold in preaching the gospel of grace.
Justin Harvey | South Africa