I accepted Jesus and have been attending New Creation Church since 2014. This meant I heard Pastor Prince preaching live almost every Sunday for many years. You would expect I was receiving the gift of righteousness and have been reigning in life by this time. But no.
Outwardly, I was a good, happy man at work and with my family. Inwardly, I was still holding on to my past failures, hurts, and rejections and living with a secret pornography addiction I had since secondary school.
Sometimes I lost control and let the person I secretly was break out. I became a different person—mean, angry, full of depressive and even suicidal thoughts. I gave up on fighting long ago and was so defeated that every time this happened, I shut myself down, silently accepting that the shameful and lustful man on the inside was just part of me. This made me feel less hypocritical, and it was easier to pretend to be a good, happy man.
Thankfully, things started to change in the year 2022. In January, I subscribed to the Gospel Partner program because I wanted to support my pastor and the first month’s subscription was free. Not wanting to waste the free subscription, I started listening to the sermons. The preaching was good as always, scriptural, straight to the point, and highly entertaining. For the joy and affordability, I continued the subscription and kept listening until I could finish an entire sermon almost every day.
I just listened without much expectation. But freedom came in a way that I did not know how and when. All I could recall was that one time when the desire to watch pornography arose, a voice inside me said, “Stop it. You can.” I answered, “Yes.” Only much later did I understand that this was the moment I finally started receiving His grace. I just felt the desire become so weak that I could easily resist it. After that victory, my desire to watch pornography just kept decreasing until it was completely gone. It happened so super-naturally that I did not even realize it was a miracle that was delivering me from a twenty-year bondage.
As I look back, I realize I have been radically transformed, seldom thinking about my past. I had no time for that. I became too busy enjoying a life full of Jesus’ abundance and His purposes for me. Bad thoughts and negative feelings still come, but I’ve learned to walk through them by knowing that I do not need to pretend. By Jesus’ blood, I AM the good, happy man that I always longed to be.
I felt led to write this testimony after I read Pastor Prince’s book Destined to Reign 15th Anniversary Edition on the JP app. After seeing people giving their testimonies, I wanted to add my witness to the truth: I live right by believing right.
Thank you for the Gospel Partner program and for making thousands of sermons available at my fingertips. If not, I wouldn’t encounter and know Jesus in such an accelerated way. Thank you, Pastor Prince, for tirelessly shouting out the true gospel of grace year after year.
Thank You, Jesus, my Savior, for loving me so much and making me righteous forever!
Anonymous | Singapore
