Pastor Prince, I was raised in church and have believed Jesus as my Savior since the age of 6. But I have always carried the burden of sin and the 10 Commandments. That squeezed the joy of Christian living out of me and I walked defeated and beaten. I thought I was suffering as I should in the church.
Years later I failed God as a youth leader in ministry. I had gotten my girlfriend pregnant. I walked away from my church and cut myself off from everyone I knew. I still believed in and loved the Lord, but I was punishing myself for my sin.
We got married before our daughter was born. We were building our family the best I knew how. Two years into our marriage, we moved 1,200 miles away from home to live in Pittsburgh. It was a big move but we felt it was the best decision. But 1 year later, I came home from work to an empty house. There was a key and a business card of my wife’s divorce lawyer on the counter.
I was so broken. I had no one to turn to except a longtime friend back home. I started calling on him and he began talking about you and your ministry. He recommended that I start following your ministry. I was contemplating suicide when I first heard you preach the gospel of grace message. I felt free, I felt alive, and most importantly, I felt loved and no longer alone.
The year was 2010 and I had started getting your CD sermons. I did a lot of driving and I could sometimes listen to 2 or 3 sermons a day! I no longer had a fear of my circumstances, like not having enough money. I started putting my trust in Jesus and really believing that I am righteous in Christ. I started speaking over my marriage and speaking out loud that God is a God of reconciliation, and that He could and would restore my marriage!
A couple of months into our separation, I was forced to sign the divorce papers. As I stood there with the notary signing the papers, I spoke out loud and said God would restore our marriage and we would not get divorced.
As I signed those papers, all I thought about was Abraham who was about to sacrifice his own son, and God interceded and gave him an offering. I just saw that God would intercede for me even as I signed the papers.
When I called my wife to talk about our marriage, she told me she hated me and never loved me. I felt God telling me to stop calling her so often and that He was working on her.
Eight months after I signed our divorce papers, I got a phone call from my wife one day asking to come back home! By now, we both thought we were legally divorced. When we called her lawyer to find out what we could do, we were told the State of Pennsylvania rejected our divorce!
We later discovered the reason: errors in the paperwork filed. The lawyer had misspelled some words. But I knew it was God who had intervened and restored our marriage. When you know your place in Christ, all things ARE POSSIBLE. Praise God!
I was a defeated, hopeless Christian going through life without hope. But I am now alive in Christ and have forever been changed. My wife and I are blessed with a wonderful godly marriage and we have 4 beautiful children—Olivia, Abigail, Ethan, and Emily. My heart is so thankful for you, Pastor Prince. We may never meet here but one day I will thank you for your faithfulness!
Jonathan Soileau | Louisiana, United States