I had been suffering from night terrors since the age of six. They caused me to see horrific images even when I was fully conscious. I had received every medical help possible and even had a computerized tomography (CT) scan of my head. However, nothing explained the reason for the visions.
To be honest, I had wrong believing during my early teenage years. I allowed myself to believe that I was meant to be tortured by evil and to use evil against others. That made my life unbearable.
Years later, I ended up in a grace-based church and participated in a women’s church group for two semesters. They helped me tremendously and I even began writing a spiritually inspired memoir for two years. However, I still wasn’t set free from my struggles. Thoughts of having done wrong against God continued to race through my mind.
I spoke to a pastor about it and he led me to Bible scriptures about grace. But I just couldn’t grasp the concept. I realized that having a master’s degree had nothing to do with the ability to understand and receive the truth of grace.
One day, while I was looking up the word “grace” on the Internet, I read Pastor Joseph Prince’s teachings on it. Unfortunately, I disregarded them because they sounded too good to be true.
Weeks later, I found myself at my wit’s end. I looked up and said, “I’ve done all I can in trying to confess every sin, read scriptures, attend Bible studies, and obey the Ten Commandments. I surrender all to You, Lord Jesus Christ!”
I’m not sure how many days passed before I heard one of Pastor Prince’s sermons coming from my mother’s bedroom. As I was halfway toward the room to hear what he had to say, my mother was also half-way out of bed to get me to hear the message!
I listened intently to his preaching with tears in my eyes. As he spoke, I couldn’t help but feel myself being set free—his explanation on grace and truth had set my mind free.
Before hearing this message, I thought it was up to me to sin no more. But the harder I tried not to sin, the easier it was to fall into temptation. The smallest sin, such as a little white lie, would torment me day and night because I thought I needed to confess every single sin or risk going to hell if I died forgetting to confess one. So I was practically confessing my sins throughout the day. I also thought I had committed the unforgivable sin.
But Pastor Prince clarified that Jesus died for EVERY single sin! I learned that my past, present, and future sins were all accounted for and paid for on the cross! Jesus is our High Priest and for this reason God sees my sins no more.
Since that day, I have been listening to Pastor Prince’s messages on grace daily. Today, I live a life without fear of condemnation and a freedom I never thought was possible.
His message about the woman in the Bible who was forgiven much is one of my favorites—like her, my love for my Lord has grown because I know I have been forgiven much.
I have been completely delivered from my night terrors, including the fear and suffering caused by them. The Lord has blessed me by replacing what I used to fear with His presence as I listen to your grace-based messages when I close my eyes.
Thank you for sharing the truth of grace and setting a captive like me free.
The writer has requested to remain anonymous | Texas, US