Pastor Prince, I was brought up in a Christian home and came to know the Lord at a very young age. Even though, I knew that the Lord loved me, people around me told me of an angry God who would punish me if I did wrong.I got pregnant at eighteen years old. I remember crying out to the Lord and He comforted me throughout my pregnancy. But people around me hated me because in their eyes I should have been punished. After a while, I fell under the pressure because I couldn’t explain why the Lord loved me. I soon fell into condemnation and guilt because I was told that God was mad at me.
I have been in church most of my life where I have served in several leadership roles. But I still felt condemned because of what people said to me and what I was saying to myself. At one moment I would be at peace and the next, I would be confused and not sure of who I am.
I have been divorced and I have had several children. Then I got married again in 2006. I moved to Tallahassee, Florida where life seemed fine for a while until my oldest son was arrested and sentenced to life in prison. Once again I heard the voice of condemnation from within. I cried out to the Lord and He comforted me but because I was told so many times that God is mad with me, I just did not feel secure.
One day I saw you on Trinity Broadcast Network (TBN) and I got hold of one of your books, Destined to Reign. In the book, you talk about a little boy who hid a glistening stone inside a hole he dug. Every day he came back looking for the stone but he had to wash the mud and dirt on it at a stream. This continued until he finally placed the stone under the steady flow of a waterfall. The stone experienced a continual washing and the boy never had to wash it again.
I saw that I was like that stone and Jesus was cleansing me all day. But that revelation did not stick because of all the pressure around me.
My husband and I then started going into the prisons to preach because we both knew that the Lord had called us to ministry.
In 2009, the Lord put the desire in my husband to start a church in Tallahassee. As we started ministering in the prison and at our church, there was always a weight. Whenever situations arose in our finances or marriage, we would begin to question our faith. We just weren’t seeing the life that Jesus died for us to have.
I continued to listen to your messages and reading your books on my own. And every time I go into the prison, I would preach the grace of God. I don’t know when it happened but my husband started preaching the message of grace also even though he had initially rejected it because he was so embedded in religion and traditions.
Now, about ten different prisons and our church are being impacted by the grace message. But even though we have been preaching grace, it wasn’t until your two messages about Uncovering the Enemy’s Tactics against You that I realized that all my life, I have been secretly accepting the accusations of the enemy about my life and not fully accepting what my Lord had done for me. I am finally free!
Pastor Prince, I thank Abba for you. I now receive what the enemy was fighting me all my life not to get—that I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus!
Anonymous | Florida, United States
