I have been a Christian for 12 years now. When I was saved, I was a drug addict and suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder, which led to severe depression and anxiety. On many occasions, I tried to end my life.
My first church taught me that I was blessed by my good works and I would suffer bad consequences for my sins. I loved the Lord and tried my best to keep the law. Yet, the more I tried, the more I failed. I tried to give up my drug addiction only to find myself taking more drugs. Every time I missed the mark, I would punish myself by cutting my arms deeply.
I felt so guilty, condemned, unworthy and unloved.
My teenage son also became violent towards me and my two younger children. I had to ask him to leave and move in with his father. I felt I had failed as a mother. Within days of that, I awoke in a mental hospital as I had completely lost my mind. I was there for a month and I did not know who I was or what I was doing. It was very frightening. I was on eight different types of medication but they only worsened my condition.
I almost gave up until I was given a copy of Pastor Joseph Prince’s teaching titled Condemnation Kills But The Spirit Gives Life. I watched it every day for four months. I also started taking the Holy Communion three times a day, together with my medication. My eyes were opened for the first time to see Jesus and His love for me. The Lord led me to a church where the gospel of grace is preached by leaders changed by Pastor Prince’s teachings. I also listened to Pastor Prince’s weekly sermons.
Praise our amazing Father God! It has been three years since I started listening to the gospel of grace and my mind has been completely restored.
God has also healed me of post-traumatic stress disorder and depression. For the first time in 20 years, I am totally free of medication. I can share with great joy that I have been clean of any drug use for more than two years. God has also restored my relationship with my eldest son.
Most importantly, I have a loving relationship with my beautiful Saviour, Jesus Christ. Truly, amazing grace saved my life. Thank you, Pastor Prince, for sharing the true gospel and what Jesus has done for me on the cross. I have stopped punishing myself because I know Jesus took my punishment on the cross for every sin—past, present, and future. May God bless you, your wonderful family, and your beautiful church.
Kerry Rhodes | Australia