In 2006, I contracted systemic lupus erythematosus (a chronic autoimmune disease that attacks healthy tissues). I had to be under medication to suppress the symptoms and the process to control the outbreaks of the disease over the years was very painful.
I came from a background where what I was taught about God was legalistic. Under those teachings, I developed condemnation, guilt, and severe depression. I attempted suicide three times and was hostile to my family. I was bitter and couldn’t forgive myself and others. I was suffering inside and my health deteriorated further.
During this time, I came to know about Pastor Prince’s teachings and started attending a care group. After embracing the gospel of grace, I began to understand that God’s love is unconditional and that He loves me despite my shortcomings. I don’t have to “clean” myself before I go to the Lord to receive His love. Every day, I would partake of the Holy Communion and declare that there would be a glorious restoration in every area of my life.
In May 2016, my medication was reduced to a minimum. My husband and I started to try for a baby but to no avail. I was worried that it was caused by my heavy reliance on medication previously. I kept meditating on God’s Word even though I was upset. I also remembered my current pastor quoting Pastor Prince’s words, “right believing leads to right living.” So I began to change my mindset and look to the Lord instead. Though I was undeserving, I knew that God was still willing to bless me. Praise Jesus, I finally became pregnant! On April 6, 2017, I gave birth to a healthy baby.
I no longer indulge in self-pity and am able to forgive those who had hurt me in the past. I really believe there will be a grace revolution in the whole of China and that God’s glory will manifest in the churches here.
XS | China
